Pointers

If you hope that these insights will survive my demise, you'd better make a copy. Sorry for any whacky text size changes. Blogspot is sloppy.

In closing

  I thought it might be nice to provide a list of the books that remain in publication in order of the dates published, first to last.


Sentience

A Sentient Perspective

Beauty & Fiction

Millennium

Book 6

The Sentient Struggle For Transformation

This And That

The Bane of Mankind

Ten

The History That Counts

Infini Entendre

Human

Fusion 

Sentience Part II: Childhood's End


The last two provide the most comprehensive perspective on the whole bewildering complexity of our madness.  I would recommend reversing the order.  Childhood's End may prepare you best for Fusion. They cover everything of import except the long journey to arrive at clarity and the many minor clues.  


Rutting coitus trains men to become selfish, lie, seek conquest, and remain animals.  Loving coitus teaches men to be Human.


The human race has overcome everything but its own insanity.  There is no greater puzzle.  I unraveled it all.


I have only provided a link to Childhood's End on Amazon on the home page.  It should become available on other major online websites for books soon.  

This book wraps it all up.

Excerpt from Sentience Part II, Childhood's End


The human race has overcome everything but its own insanity.  There is no greater puzzle.  I unraveled it all.


Instigating events

There is a sequence of events in a man's life that creates the comprehensive denial of the transformative component necessary for sentient ascendance.  What could those events possibly be?

In the face of adamant denial, as our sentient awareness became increasingly formidable, hints began to appear.  It is obvious that something is wrong.  Only what is wrong has remains so obscure.

That which went wrong must also apply to all of the varied reactions, the strange behaviours and quirks of the human race.  The quirks observed in the male gender, in particular, must correlate.  While the female gender's quirks must be taken into account, it is clearly the male gender's quirks that stand out as particularly disruptive to our state.

  That defines the hunt.

Every man is affected.  It's just a matter of degree.  Not all men go completely mad but, enough do so to upset our existence in a comprehensive manner and leads to the ongoing destructive tendencies of the race.  

The events must also answer how and why the realization became so twisted and distorted, hidden beneath heaps of nonsense that have accumulated for millennia.  What is the secret that leads to mad obsessions?  How and why did it become an obsessive secret?

That refines the hunt.

One of the most bizarre aspects is that the whole of the male gender was able to close ranks on this unreasonable dysfunction without ever saying a word to each other about the subject.  It is imprinted on the male gender without a word ever being uttered in the most bizarre manner, leading to such awful effects as the caricature of male that became toxic.  

That complicates the hunt.

It has held all of humanity in thrall to the stupour for three millennia, while the prehuman condition became more combative, because it has been so complicated.

All men are so committed, on their own, to avoiding the subject, but so desperate to avoid considering the subject openly that they began to fear anyone that might expose the secret.  The disturbance led to a level of distrust throughout the male gender that speaks to paranoia.  It is the 'good old boys network' personified and crystallized into its essential form.  How did it occur?

Cognitive dissonance

All of this points to a single culprit.  Cognitive dissonance. 

Cognitive dissonance is a state of mental disarray that occurs when a person holds beliefs or opinions that are inconsistent (with a sentient reality and the desire for clarity).  

This defines what happened.  Still, how does it occur?  

It is a disruption of the mental state of the whole of the male gender that is reinforced nearly daily from puberty on until old age.  By then, the damage has become deep and abiding only varying in degree by how the individual coped with the issue at hand (or didn't).

Cognitive dissonance suits the circumstances perfectly.  It disrupts beyond just words.  It disrupts the thinking process itself, throwing thoughts off into deceits, delusions, excuses, and justifications rather than confront the secret that everyone knows.  

It allows for aberrant deceitful thoughts that suppress the most important realizations, reinforces feelings of distrust of 'others', and blinding all and sundry to the secret.  

It creates despair as well as delusions of grandeur.  It initiated all of the paradigms of nonsense by which we live.  It creates an altered state of mind that adapts self-deceits to suit the circumstances of the individual.  

It explains all of the quirks, aberrations, and obsessions that consume individual males, as well as the overall bizarre take on life that the male gender displays.  

The whole spectrum of reactions of the male gender is explained by cognitive dissonance.  It also explains the quirks that many of the female gender adopt through osmosis as it is imprinted on them by the mad antics of the male gender.  It leaves room for all of the paradigms of nonsense that have developed.

It also explains the maintenance of the animal's stupour for three millennia as it sidelined the sentient mental facilities.

That still leaves the question of how cognitive dissonance occurs?

Ecstasy stirs the brain to new heights.  A most disturbing event occurs during male ecstasy that sets off the cognitive dissonance.  

The female does not achieve ecstasy.  The man's ecstasy prevents the desire for its conscious consideration.

An act that has not changed significantly for a billion years becomes disappointing for a sentient being that cannot avoid its own heightened awareness of existence.  The mind retreats in confusion during the surprising state of ecstasy, never to entirely recover.  Instead, it becomes embedded in the subconscious.

For a sentient being, the desire to repeat the experience of ecstasy is tainted by the realization that the woman did not experience the same pleasure.  It becomes firmly embedded in the subconscious as it is repeated over a lifetime.

Do you begin to see the contention between the selfish desire to repeat ecstasy and disturbing realization that the woman does not share in the ecstasy?  The stunning state of ecstasy for the male shunts all else aside.

The disturbance is compounded by the certainty that there is nothing to be done.  The certainty has been in place so long that no one even questions it.  Acceptance of failure preceded the more sophisticated realization by the male gender that it is no longer just an animal.

The male's dissonant, haywire reaction to all of life becomes clear.  The simultaneous occurrence of ecstasy and failure during coitus derails his sentient clarity.

The male sentient brain goes haywire during the ecstatic event of orgasm when the same ecstasy does not occur for his companion.  How does he justify it?  He can't, so his consciousness becomes dissonant and the issue becomes entombed.

That leaves only the curious occurrence of the male gender's communal reaction that may be best described as misogyny.

Camaraderie

The camaraderie of the male gender may be described as the circling the wagons to protect the ludicrous secret that only keeps them from realizing their sentient potential for love.  How that came about is just as convoluted as the cognitive dissonance that preceded it. 

It is based the individual male's misconceived desire to feel like a man and be accepted as a man by others that are putting on the same act.  Twisted like a pretzel.

A man wants to 'feel like a man' in the absence of that which distinguishes a man from an animal.  In order to do so, he has to feel validated by other men.  Because of his cognitive dissonance, he can never validate himself.  

He has no idea if any other man is successful at Loving Coitus since he dares not ask (in general, they are not, close to a point approaching unity), so he relies on the appearance of confidence in men and attempts to mimic the same. This created the caricature of male toxicity, aka conman.  

They put on an act of confidence just to get by and, thus, join the camaraderie of men that developed specifically for the reason of the secret that no one has been willing to admit.  Each and every one of them has been unwilling to admit their own failure and have no confirmation that anyone else fails.  So, the comedy of errors continues on and the most arrogant often become role models for no rational reason.

The camaraderie and contrasting isolation (caused by the secret) experienced by each individual man is compounded by the validation by other males that never rings entirely true. It is one of the most bizarre effects of the twisted path that the prehumans have followed.  It defines topsy-turvy very well.

How ironic that they have been running away from that which can fulfill the self-respect, while ridding them of their dependence on lies and a toxic caricature that damages all. 

The underhanded behaviour that develops to extremes in some herds of prehumans, as they crowd together, are meant to distract from glaring the spotlight on the perceived weakness (which is only a weakness for an animal!).  It is all a craven, cowardly act to seek a sense of superiority to compensate for feelings of inferiority.

A Human species, through the strength of fulfilling Loving Coitus, can create Human capabilities to make it more than an animal in every way.  Until we do, we remain an animal demented by its sentient capabilities in all ways.

The misogyny that resulted from the false camaraderie is an awful, unintended consequence. It is the defensive stance of a mad gender lashing out in exaggerated sensitivity to any mention, or slightest intimation of their failure, no matter how innocent.  It is paranoia seeking the ghosts that it created.

I hope that begins to describe it well enough that some men can begin to counter the insanity.

All of this directs us to the sequence of events, in a man's life and the male gender's increasingly unreasoned state, that creates the bizarre circumstances that have prevented us from obliterating our dystopian, destructive perspective on life.

We can be Human.  We just haven't admitted it yet.

The adamant refutation of the problematic nature of the absence of Loving Coitus, and the missing link to its absolute necessity to attain an unrestricted sentient, Human existence, has made it extremely complex to get to the root of it all, since the deceptions have been embellished and reinforced for three millennia with almost every word uttered or written.  

Rather than confronting the issue and, finally, succeeding, we buried the problem beneath growing heaps of folderol.  We have been hiding from our Humanity.

The strengthening of dissonance over the lifetime of the human race has continued to reinforce the stupour of the animal that remains, becoming more and more violently destructive along the way.

Worse yet, the vaguely conscious awareness as it continued to creep into each generation at a younger age with no known viable recourse, just caused a misdirected rebellion with no discernible target.  Until now.

The importance of the win-win scenario of mutual ecstasy is obvious to our sentient awareness, whether we like it or not.  The male gender must deal with the calamity caused by its absence during coitus.

The worst results are embodied by those that avoid any compensatory action to fulfill the woman's ecstasy.  They take and only take.  Or, whine about it (think InCel and Epstein).  Those that find some stopgap alternative suffer less, but still suffer.

Men intensely hate the feeling of failure that their own ecstasy interferes with conscious consideration.  Conversely, they are driven to keep coming back for more.  It describes the cognitive dissonance perfectly and reveals the source of the ongoing stupour and madness.

It did not begin as a secret.  It began as something that utterly confounded the male gender and grew to the state of a secret that no one was willing to mention but everyone knew because or sentient comprehension has been delayed so long.

In desperation, the male gender continued to attempt to convince itself that there is nothing to be done.  Our increasingly capable sentient awareness has countered that delusion all along.  May it now overcome the madness.


Fusion is Published

 It is available on Amazon and should become available at most other bookstores online soon.  It is, by far, the best book I have written on the subject to date.

The Lie that started it all

December 2025


The lie that started it all is that unassisted coitus can be no more than what an animal expects.  The woman servicing the man's ecstasy with nothing in return.  

It is only a lie for Humans.  It is true for animals.  Animals never had a chance.  Humans will overcome the lack with the application of their sentient capabilities.  The Human race can overcome its stupour.

The worst part of the absence of Loving Coitus is that it taught us to lie.  The twisted road humanity had to take was all due to this unalterable situation for an animal that turned into a challenge for a sentient race and eventually became a lie that everyone knew and participated in without ever accepting that Loving Coitus can become a fact of Human existence.

It's as much about honesty as it is about sex.  The lie sent us into a tailspin of lies that has lasted three millennia.

The Grand Narrative

January 2026

The Grand Narrative is the narrative of a sentient race that finally realizes its potential and gains its sentience without restriction.  

The Great Narrative describes the narrative of stupour of the prehuman.

The Great Narrative's finest days, of course, were circa three millennia ago.  Across the world, the best of prehumanity raised their heads and began to think in earnest, attempting to break through the stupour of the animal.  

One intractable subject laid low all of the great thinkers for more than three millennia.  They all continued to avoid the only subject that really matters.

The Grand Narrative begins with the male gender accepting the realization that it can succeed at Loving Coitus.  That launches our unbridled sentient state.  

By applying a bit of discipline, effort, and the thinking faculties endowed by Nature to a sentient race, the male gender succeeds at the effort to last long enough to make the act of coitus an act that can transform the relationship between the two genders, and the race as a whole, into the advanced form of sharing and caring we call love.  That is the foundation for a wholly sentient state.  The noble characteristics that we have always admired will also be unleashed.  Clarity will be achieved.

The madness of the prehuman shows itself well in the phrase, "everyone out for themselves".  It all starts with the animal's selfish rendition of coitus.  All of the paradigms of nonsense are part of the Great Narrative, caused the prehuman's avoidance of the only subject that really matters..

The biggest, most resounding difference between the narrative of the prehuman animal and the Human Grand Narrative is that the two genders will finally be in concert.  Thus, clarity will be achieved, for the first time in history.  

    All of the lies we all accept without question will have no place to hide.  All of the distortions developed in order to hide from the truth of Loving Coitus and a Grand Human Narrative will fall away.

As the feminine gender becomes an equal partner and the male gender raises itself to is full Human stature in which it has been trapped since the beginning, there will initially be agreement on the single most important topic, Loving Coitus.  From there, all of the lies we tell ourselves will begin to fall away.

If you inspect The Great Narrative of the prehuman closely, you will find that there are vast differences of opinion on the most inane topics that become violent for no rational reason.

This is due to TLTSIA and the resultant proliferation of lies.  The madness is contained each of those lies.  

Honesty has never been a characteristic of prehumanity.  It is a mainstay of a sentient race.  The desperation to avoid the seeming truth, that is itself a lie, is disorienting.

With the initiation of the earnest pursuit of clarity, self-honesty will become a cherished commodity by all.  The narrative progresses to a Grand state of sentient awareness and acceptance when we seek out clarity and consensus rather than misery, conflict, and disagreement.

As the most destructive lie begins to fade away, our sense of clarity will enhance our ability to detect a lie.  Lies will become few and far between.  Lies are not the natural tendency of a sentient being that retains its self-respect.

The Grand Narrative of Humanity will be shared.  This begins to hint at the Fusion of a race of sentient beings.  

The narrative will not be broken into shards by every little misconception and a mountain of lies.  It will start with the honest sharing of the narrative by the two sentient genders.  The narrative will not dominated by one gender that has always had something to hide and, thus, subjugating the other gender to assure the truth that is a lie is never revealed.

The Grand Narrative of Humanity will be the narrative of a self-aware sentient race moving forward with rationality, passion, emotional maturity, joy of life, celebration of the most extraordinary ecstatic act of love; open engagement between the genders, unfettered by hidden agendas; and engagement between fellow humans for the good of all as the madness subsides.  The Grand Narrative will seek clarity in all things of importance, first amongst those priorities will be the welfare of all of the race.

The absence of hidden agendas my describe sentient life and The Grand Narrative best.

Two genders will finally move forward in harmony with each other and their sentient capabilities because the selfish act of rutting coitus will be transformed into a loving act of sharing.  

The two disparate narratives of two genders in opposition due to hidden agendas will become one Grand Narrative.  All of the other, lesser, broken narratives developed to hide from the truth will heal.  All of the lies we tell ourselves to get through the day will become a thing of the past.


As far as The Great Narrative, I have hauled prehumanity over the coals more than necessary due to my position in the time stream placing me at the discontinuity between animal's stupour and sentient awareness.   The point in the split infinity where a sentient race leaves it animal stupour behind.


Dammit.  I really desire to have a dialogue.  It is the only way I clear up all of the difficulties I have with conveying all of this in a coherent manner.

I realize now, though, that is not the only reason I damn near begged for a conversation on the subject with the one I hold dear.  She, like me, works best with conversation, not monologues.

The Lie itself

January, 2026

Maybe nothing portrays the complexity of that with which a sentient race contends in order to gain its sentient state than the lie itself, the lie that started it all.  It is a confounding subject to explore, much less explain, as I have tried for going on twenty years.  Even calling rutting coitus a lie is a simplification of a complex situation.  It is only a lie for a sentient race.

As I write, "The desperation to avoid the seeming truth, that is itself a lie, is palpable." in the post on The Grand Narrative, I realize just how twisted the situation really is.  It is a truth that grew into a lie for a sentient race that can change its circumstances.

Rutting coitus is an unavoidable truth for the animal.  They are witless and cannot conceive of changing the circumstances of coitus.  It is not a lie for an animal.  Coitus was made that way by Nature for animals because animals cannot think well enough to contend with the mechanics of making love.  Nature also provided for so much more than an animal can experience.  Nature provided everything necessary for a sentient race to make it a loving event.  We have just not gotten out of our own way.

In the case of a sentient race, rutting coitus becomes the lie.  Rutting coitus is the situation in which a sentient race emerges.  It is not acceptable for a sentient race that knows better.  We know better.

Rutting coitus was so ingrained, through millions of years of the witless animal's existence, before we ever existed, that we couldn't initially conceive of how to make it an act of love.  We did conceive of what it would mean to make it an act of love, though.  The conundrum regarding the two disparate notions led us to look for explanations.  

Crossing the threshold from the rutting coitus of the animal to the realization of Loving Coitus is the defining moment of sentience.

It has dogged our steps for at least three millennia.  Rutting coitus makes sense - for an animal.  Loving Coitus is the only way coitus makes coherent sense to a sentient race.

Rutting coitus is an act that haunts our sentience.  It is a lie to believe that it is acceptable for a sentient race.  We purge our sentience by believing rutting coitus is acceptable to a self-aware race.

Early prehumanity could conceive of an act of coitus that suited a sentient race, a loving act in which the ecstasy was shared by both, but could not conceive of how to do it.  They opted to avoid the the question altogether.  In the West, because it had been blatantly exposed by Sappho, if no one else, the idea had to be squelched.  The East, for whatever reason, was able to adopt Saving Face rather than ever confront the issue. (I still wonder if the East would have ever been able to confront the situation with such an approach; it really squelched all consideration thoroughly)

It is that squelching in all cultures that led to all of the trouble.  We knew what should be but could not face it at all.  So, it was rendered into a lie, enforced by the mantra "Don't even think about it.  It will drive you mad."  "It is madness to make coitus something pleasurable for a sentient race."

In order to make that happen, subtle nuances, insidious implications, were applied to make sure the young never got it into their heads to ever think about it.

I've already talked at length about how youth still rebels in the absence of anything substantial to rebel against.  The biggest idea that ever enters their heads is that something is not right.  They still rebel, even in the depths of their blindness.  It is our sentience rebelling against the forced forced blindness.  For the Flower Power Generation, it was finally voiced as "Free Love".  All the got was free sex.

At best, somewhere deep in the subconscious of a young man the following may rattle around "Coitus should be different, but my elders (that I'm taught to respect and obey (for no good reason)) weren't able to change anything, so who am I to think any different?"  It is the defeat of a sentient being.

"It's been this way forever, so who am I to think differently?"

That which rubs everyone raw over a lifetime is our sentient awareness.  It knows what should be.  Humanity is not built to accept the failure.

With the acceptance of the failure to fulfill the act of love in the most natural manner possible, we fail as a race to become sentient.


I've been thinking about the lie that started it all in conjunction with a few of the lesser lies and begin to gain a little more clarity.

TLTSIA, that sex can be no more than what it is, that the woman must service the man's ecstasy with nothing in return.  The lie is only a lie for Humans.  As long as it persists, it forces the prehuman into a state exactly the same as an animal.  It is an the utter truth for the animal.  It is a lie, due to three millennia of delusions and animal-like perception of a sentient existence for a race continuing to desperately avoid its sentient clarity.


After rewriting The Grand Narrative, I began thinking about TLTSIA and realized there is even more to say.

I was thinking about the mindset that develops in the man as the years go by.  It starts with absolute shock that the most essential expression of love is no more than a tawdry affair.  Then, it moves on to a struggle with how to contend with the awkward situation without the slightest ability to accept the situation.  That is the point that them man goes haywire.  

The concept that there is something wrong with one's own enactment of loving expression is nigh on impossible to accept.  It twists and twists - both genders.  

I can still think of my own attempts to grapple with the situation.  I could not accept that there was something wrong with me, so my thinking toyed with the idea that there must be something wrong with the woman.  That screwy thought was buried deeply, like the rest of the conundrum of coitus. 

Of course, in my unusual case, I just did my best to avoid the situation in the strangest way imaginable without ever looking for an alternative.  Funny thing is that I was helped along the way by women.  Let me tell you, that is a huge admission on my part that took me on the order of half a century to accept.

Every man struggles with the same impossible realization, that they are not succeeding at the most loving act of existence, unless by some extraordinary circumstances, he learns to succeed wholly.  That is rare to the point of a fraction of a percent.  

If they are not succeeding completely, then they have to find some other way to settle the score.  

Some pursue wealth or fame or power to attract women and cast them aside at the slightest hint that they are catching on, becoming bored, or finding another way to contend with the lack of their own ecstasy.  Some find alternative ways to fulfill the woman's ecstasy, finally accepting that there is nothing to be done.  Deep in the subconscious, I suspect that they sense what they are never willing to admit.  This makes them less than Human.  Some (most?) choose finding a woman that accepts the