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Excerpt from the upcoming book,

Sentience Part II, Childhood's End

If I live that long ... it may take awhile.

A person that has a secret they tell no one and cannot even admit to themselves, lives a barren and disruptive life.  

Each and every individual of the male gender, as well as the male gender itself, has just such a secret and the whole human race suffers from it.  

Men regret the absence of Loving Coitus.  They cannot even admit it to themselves.  Until now.

It has been impossible to reveal until now.  The stupour that we inherited from the animal and a range of disruptive circumstances have made it a dizzying prospect to reveal or even contemplate.

The male gender is driven to achieve sexual release on a regular basis.  The fact that a man cannot achieve his lover's success without some sort of assistance is thrown in his face regularly and repeatedly because of his biological urge to achieve sexual release.  It creates a conflict in his sentient mind that is far more aware of the inconsistency pertaining to coitus than an animal.  

Because it is such a natural biological process, it astounds a man that he should have to think about how to succeed at making it more than the animal's rendition.  That is just the beginning of the conflict it creates in his sentient mind.

Due to the circumstance of his biological urge that forces him to desire to repeat the act, he cannot let it go.  Due to the circumstance of his sentient awareness of the imbalanced results, he cannot ever be satisfied.

It is a shame and embarrassment that he keeps secret, even from himself, due to the inertia of our history.  That increasingly derails his state of mind over his lifetime.  It is the conundrum that must be explored.  How does that happen?  He never dares to question another man about it, due to his unsuitable, but very understandable, feelings of shame and embarrassment regarding his failure.   He does not nee to feel shame.  He only needs to confront the problem.

It is all due to an inertia that began long before the human race ever existed.

Even worse, the inertia of mental barriers, in the peculiar form of paradigms of nonsense, have been accumulating over the last three millennia to avoid ever thinking about it.

An animal can do nothing about it.  They cannot think in the robust manner of a sentient race.  It may bother them but they do not have the mental facilities to do a thing about it.  They cannot control the muscles that cause the inadvertent and inopportune eruption of ejaculation.

It is not beyond a Human male's capability and that makes all the difference in the world.  It has only been beyond most men's ability to consider the issue.  The fundamental reason all of this occurred must be explored.

The instigating sequence of events

The sequence of events that leads to the current state of men contending only within their subconscious, never letting the issue surface to their conscious mind, has become difficult for me to articulate.  

The human race spent the last three millennia creating excuses and justifications for the failure rather than ever taking the time to consider the issue and realize it is entirely resolvable ... for a sentient race.  The many triggers that block the conscious thought certainly has been one of the reasons it remained obscure for so long.

We are seeking to discover the sequence of events in a man's life that create the vast denial of this crucial component of their sentient ascendance.  Our sentient awareness has made it increasingly clear over the last three millennia.  Why has it taken so long?

The result must apply to all of the varied reactions observed in the male gender due to the subconscious realization that Loving Coitus is absent.  How did the realization become so twisted and distorted?

One of the most bizarre aspects is that the male gender was able to close ranks on this unreasonable dysfunction without ever saying a word to each other about the subject.  It has held all of humanity in thrall to the stupour for three millennia.  How could that be possible?  It is the most puzzling and insidious aspect of our demented state.  

All men are so committed, on their own, to avoiding the subject, but so desperate to avoid considering the subject openly that they began to fear anyone that might expose the secret.  It led to a level of distrust that approaches paranoia.

All of this points to a single culprit.  Cognitive dissonance. 

Cognitive dissonance is a state of mental disarray that occurs when a person holds beliefs or opinions that are inconsistent with the clarity they sense regarding a sentient reality.  

This explains so much.  But, still, how does it occur?  

It is a fundamental disruption of the mental state of the whole of the male gender that is reinforced nearly daily unto old age.

It has been able to carry on in the face of all of the destruction it has caused for three millennia.  How could that happen?  

Cognitive dissonance suits the circumstances perfectly.  It disrupts beyond just words.  It disrupts the thinking process itself, throwing the thoughts off into delusions, excuses, and justifications.  It allows for aberrant deceitful thoughts, reinforces feelings of distrust, and hides the secret from all and sundry.  It creates delusions of grandeur and despair.  It is more than a single paradigm of nonsense.  It creates an altered state of mind that adapts the self-deceits to suit the circumstances of the individual.  

It suits all of the aberrations and obsessions that individual males, as well as the male gender, displays.  The whole spectrum of reactions is explained by cognitive dissonance.  It also explains the quirks that many of the female gender adopt through osmosis from the male gender.  It leaves room for all of the paradigms of nonsense that have developed.

It also explains the maintenance of the animal's stupour for three millennia.  It sidelines the sentient mental facilities.

The source, the sequence of events that makes the cognitive dissonance possible is fascinating indeed, as should be expected.

The brain is vulnerable to going haywire during ecstasy.  It stirs the brain to new heights (see The Grand Design), but also lays it open to reverting to the stupour in order to avoid sentient clarity on a most disturbing pair of events and the misguided belief that there is nothing to be done about it.

The reason for the man's dissonant, haywire reaction is also clear.  The simultaneous occurrence of ecstasy and failure.

The male brain goes haywire during the ecstatic event of orgasm without the same occurring for his mate.  How does he justify this?  He can't.   

The lack of the win-win scenario of mutual orgasm causes the dissonance.  In the throes of his own ecstasy, he shunts the awful aspect aside.  

The importance of the win-win scenario of mutual ecstasy, is obvious to our sentient awareness, whether we like it or not.

  The male's reactions make the situation clear.  Their whole lives, their toxic, combative behaviour, and the results obtained make this clear.  

They intensely hate the feeling of failure that their own ecstasy blocks from deep consideration and, yet, they are driven to keep coming back for more, reinforcing the madness.

In their growing state of confusion over a lifetime and the secret that they have never admitted to themselves, they live with the aftermath of their own madness, while never even considering its source.

The disarray in their minds that this causes is so varied from individual to individual because the source has never been admitted openly.  There is no consistency because it has never been discussed or even exposed to consideration.  It's just free-throw madness, suiting each individual's circumstances, that is instigated by the simultaneous feeling of ecstasy that cannot be matched and the subverted consciousness of the failure of the same that they have caused their lover.

It remains a secret that everyone knows and no one has been willing to confront.  Discussing the subject would expose its insanity, which the male gender has erroneously feared all along, combined with the erroneous fear that there was nothing to be done by a sentient, highly evolved, thinking creature, made it virtually impossible.  In my case, it has been a hard road because I could never discuss it with anyone, for all my attempts.  I had to isolate to a painful degree to wrack my brain in order to finally gain a relatively clear picture.

Keep in mind that this thought first occurred when the human race was not all that smart or highly evolved.

The madness has proliferated into wildly opposing reactions because no one has been willing to confront it, much less discuss it, or even admit it to themselves.

Worse, is the aberrant state and feeble attempts by men to find some form of consensus creates a bizarre desire for corroboration with those that have pursued similar aberrations, like obscene wealth.  Since they have a similar reaction to the madness, they can congregate (think Davos) and irrationally justify their obsession and find reasons to blame those that disagree for the fault.  This is how it always, repeatedly, gets out of hand.  Polarization of madness.

High mindedness, for instance, congregates together in the same way with just as little rational justification.

Nothing but entirely eradicating the cognitive dissonance can make a difference.

The extraordinary, transcendent experience of orgasm sets the stage.  The discrepancy of not sharing the ecstasy creates the dissonance.  The long-held instinctive animal's reaction has been to suggest, "that's just the way it is."  

Our sentient awareness knows better and will not let the sentient awareness of the male gender ever forget it.  

The only curse under which the human race has labored is the curse of not ever acknowledging our sentient awareness of an issue that the human race can unravel entirely in short order.  The rest of the curses that the prehuman has concocted are just a coverup.

This explains the most fundamental aspects of the paradigms behind the bizarre situation with which the male gender has had to contend all along.  It suits all reactions to the situation.

The conflict arising in the male mind by leaving the woman unfulfilled in the presence of one's own ecstasy that obliterates any immediate consciousness of the failure explains so much about our disturbed state and the persistence of the animal's stupour that does not apply to a highly developed sentient brain.

This is clearly the ultimate source of the dissonance that has ripped through every aspect of our existence.  

How does a man contend with the realization that the situation of gaining their own ecstasy leaves their partner unfulfilled, undone by the most important and fulfilling act of existence.  This is a person from whom they purportedly desire to seek favour and for whom they are attempting to seek equality.  Of course, it causes cognitive dissonance.

While I say, 'purportedly', it really is true.  It's just that their intentions get twisted over a lifetime to become something awful and deranged.

This is one of the many side-effects.  Women begin to perceive men as twisted.  It is true that is what they often become, but it is not the deepest truth.  The deepest truth is that their intentions become twisted over a lifetime of disappointment.

The situation causes the dissonance to increase over a lifetime to such an extent that, as men age, they are willing to burn down the world rather than face that which they have never been able to face.  

The man's biologically based sexual drive assures that the desire to do it again remains for a long time.  The desire to repeat the act, sooner or later, overrides any hesitancy or concern for the downside of not attaining a win-win condition.  Can you begin to get a measure of how difficult this has been to confront?  How damaging it is as it progresses throughout a lifetime?

The most immediate aftereffects are clear.  

Darkened rooms and the immediate desire to sleep in order to avoid processing the unacceptable (to a sentient mind) results.  

Then, the rationalizations begin as the cognitive dissonance fades into the background but the desire, the physical, biological urge to reenact the parody of love, increases and causes the justifications and excuses.  Anything to get laid again.

The incapacitating result of all of this is that men become takers rationalizing away their fading ability and desire to give, while women remain givers fulfilling the full spectrum of Human nature.  

It all begins in bed.  It does not need to remain that way.

The inability to accept the state of affairs consciously strengthens the dissonance and invades all aspects of the man's life over a lifetime.

Worse yet, the strengthening of dissonance over the lifetime of the human race has caused the stupour of the animal to remain and become violently destructive, long after it should have been gone.  

Even with the suggestion that Loving Coitus is possible, the excuses and justifications that have been piling up kick into high gear.  "But, there are religious reasons not do so so",  "Some men find other ways.", "God made us that way!" etc, etc, etc.  These are all nothing more than excuses to avoid inspecting the issue that has been tearing us apart since our first sentient thought.  It was a big part of the creation of formalized religions (as opposed to spirituality).  

The proof is in the number of pills and the wide array of men that buy them, though the male gender will never admit the need.  Men desperately desire to succeed at Loving Coitus but cannot admit it.  The use of a pill as a substitute does not fulfill Loving Coitus nor remove their cognitive dissonance.  It is just another dodge from the real question of men's veracity as Human beings all on their own that can only be confirmed in one way.

All of this directs us to the sequence of events in a man's life, and the male gender's unreasoning state, that creates the bizarre circumstances that have prevented us from obliterating our dystopian perspective of destruction of life.

No one has been willing to accept the importance of Loving Coitus.  Even worse, is that no one is willing to admit that unassisted Loving Coitus is almost nonexistent.  

Transforming coitus into an unassisted Human act is necessary for humanity to become Human.  It does not mean everyone must participate in Loving Coitus.  It only means that, when they do, they need to know, beforehand, that they can succeed with ease all on their own, as Humans.  

The Sentient Narrative will remain unsound as long as unassisted Loving Coitus is denied by the Human race.

We can be Human.  We just haven't admitted it yet.

It is complex to get to the root of it all, since the adamant refutation of the problematic nature of the absence of Loving Coitus, and its necessity to an unrestricted sentient, Human existence, has been developing for three millennia.  

Rather than confronting the issue and, finally, succeeding, we buried the problem beneath growing heaps of folderol.

    I also plan to get into the inferiority complex this has all caused in the male gender and the destructive compensating superiority mania used to disguise it in this book.  If I last that long.  My heart did something weird today that concerns me.

 

So long

 So long.

I won't be visiting the Whickwithy account very much any longer.  The internet in America is getting pretty weird.  Maybe that's true everywhere.  I am, generally speaking, off the internet.

I hope you read a few of the books.  I'd like to leave it to the readers to make recommendations but, since that has yet to happen, I'll list a few that seem the best to me: 

Sentience, Millennium, The Sentient Struggle for Transformation, Ten, Fusion.  

As I have just been reviewing most of the books, I think each book brings a slightly different perspective on the issue of the madness that has gripped humanity for three millennia.  I unpublished the one that really didn't seem to add anything.  These few should hold the highlights, though, as I progressed.  

Fusion is the latest and, maybe, the most definitive but, really, it's been a very long journey of wracking my brain to remove the gibberish and explore clarity and reality.

I hope you find your way to becoming Human.

The deeper I look, the more clear it becomes.  We have never rid ourselves of the animal's stupour, for one and only one reason.  That is the essence of what is wrong and why it remains so.  We are locked into an animal's perspective of stupour.

The most significant act of existence remains an animal's act and, by remaining so, ties us to the stupour from which our sentient awareness has been struggling to liberate itself for more than three millennia.  Because we can't face the truth, we remain tied to the animal through its stupour.  The stupour is in direct conflict with sentient awareness and clarity.

Of course, I'll keep writing.  I just don't expect it to amount to much.  Fusion seems to have capped the effort well and I've found no new vistas to explore.

It's been a long journey.  I hope it has been worth it. (so many D.E.'s)

Whickwithy

Fusion is Published

 It is available on Amazon and should become available at most other bookstores online soon.  It is, by far, the best book I have written on the subject to date.

The Lie that started it all

December 2025

The lie that started it all is that unassisted coitus can be no more than what an animal expects.  The woman servicing the man's ecstasy with nothing in return.  

It is only a lie for Humans.  It is true for animals.  Animals never had a chance.  Humans will overcome the lack with the application of their sentient capabilities.  The Human race can overcome its stupour.

The worst part of the absence of Loving Coitus is that it taught us to lie.  The twisted road humanity had to take was all due to this unalterable situation for an animal that turned into a challenge for a sentient race and eventually became a lie that everyone knew and participated in without ever accepting that Loving Coitus can become a fact of Human existence.

It's as much about honesty as it is about sex.  The lie sent us into a tailspin of lies that has lasted three millennia.

The Grand Narrative

January 2026

The Grand Narrative is the narrative of a sentient race that finally realizes its potential and gains its sentience without restriction.  

The Great Narrative describes the narrative of stupour of the prehuman.

The Great Narrative's finest days, of course, were circa three millennia ago.  Across the world, the best of prehumanity raised their heads and began to think in earnest, attempting to break through the stupour of the animal.  

One intractable subject laid low all of the great thinkers for more than three millennia.  They all continued to avoid the only subject that really matters.

The Grand Narrative begins with the male gender accepting the realization that it can succeed at Loving Coitus.  That launches our unbridled sentient state.  

By applying a bit of discipline, effort, and the thinking faculties endowed by Nature to a sentient race, the male gender succeeds at the effort to last long enough to make the act of coitus an act that can transform the relationship between the two genders, and the race as a whole, into the advanced form of sharing and caring we call love.  That is the foundation for a wholly sentient state.  The noble characteristics that we have always admired will also be unleashed.  Clarity will be achieved.

The madness of the prehuman shows itself well in the phrase, "everyone out for themselves".  It all starts with the animal's selfish rendition of coitus.  All of the paradigms of nonsense are part of the Great Narrative, caused the prehuman's avoidance of the only subject that really matters..

The biggest, most resounding difference between the narrative of the prehuman animal and the Human Grand Narrative is that the two genders will finally be in concert.  Thus, clarity will be achieved, for the first time in history.  

    All of the lies we all accept without question will have no place to hide.  All of the distortions developed in order to hide from the truth of Loving Coitus and a Grand Human Narrative will fall away.

As the feminine gender becomes an equal partner and the male gender raises itself to is full Human stature in which it has been trapped since the beginning, there will initially be agreement on the single most important topic, Loving Coitus.  From there, all of the lies we tell ourselves will begin to fall away.

If you inspect The Great Narrative of the prehuman closely, you will find that there are vast differences of opinion on the most inane topics that become violent for no rational reason.

This is due to TLTSIA and the resultant proliferation of lies.  The madness is contained each of those lies.  

Honesty has never been a characteristic of prehumanity.  It is a mainstay of a sentient race.  The desperation to avoid the seeming truth, that is itself a lie, is disorienting.

With the initiation of the earnest pursuit of clarity, self-honesty will become a cherished commodity by all.  The narrative progresses to a Grand state of sentient awareness and acceptance when we seek out clarity and consensus rather than misery, conflict, and disagreement.

As the most destructive lie begins to fade away, our sense of clarity will enhance our ability to detect a lie.  Lies will become few and far between.  Lies are not the natural tendency of a sentient being that retains its self-respect.

The Grand Narrative of Humanity will be shared.  This begins to hint at the Fusion of a race of sentient beings.  

The narrative will not be broken into shards by every little misconception and a mountain of lies.  It will start with the honest sharing of the narrative by the two sentient genders.  The narrative will not dominated by one gender that has always had something to hide and, thus, subjugating the other gender to assure the truth that is a lie is never revealed.

The Grand Narrative of Humanity will be the narrative of a self-aware sentient race moving forward with rationality, passion, emotional maturity, joy of life, celebration of the most extraordinary ecstatic act of love; open engagement between the genders, unfettered by hidden agendas; and engagement between fellow humans for the good of all as the madness subsides.  The Grand Narrative will seek clarity in all things of importance, first amongst those priorities will be the welfare of all of the race.

The absence of hidden agendas my describe sentient life and The Grand Narrative best.

Two genders will finally move forward in harmony with each other and their sentient capabilities because the selfish act of rutting coitus will be transformed into a loving act of sharing.  

The two disparate narratives of two genders in opposition due to hidden agendas will become one Grand Narrative.  All of the other, lesser, broken narratives developed to hide from the truth will heal.  All of the lies we tell ourselves to get through the day will become a thing of the past.

As far as The Great Narrative, I have hauled prehumanity over the coals more than necessary due to my position in the time stream placing me at the discontinuity between animal's stupour and sentient awareness.   The point in the split infinity where a sentient race leaves it animal stupour behind.

Dammit.  I really desire to have a dialogue.  It is the only way I clear up all of the difficulties I have with conveying all of this in a coherent manner.

I realize now, though, that is not the only reason I damn near begged for a conversation on the subject with the one I hold dear.  She, like me, works best with conversation, not monologues.

The Lie itself

January, 2026

Maybe nothing portrays the complexity of that with which a sentient race contends in order to gain its sentient state than the lie itself, the lie that started it all.  It is a confounding subject to explore, much less explain, as I have tried for going on twenty years.  Even calling rutting coitus a lie is a simplification of a complex situation.  It is only a lie for a sentient race.

As I write, "The desperation to avoid the seeming truth, that is itself a lie, is palpable." in the post on The Grand Narrative, I realize just how twisted the situation really is.  It is a truth that grew into a lie for a sentient race that can change its circumstances.

Rutting coitus is an unavoidable truth for the animal.  They are witless and cannot conceive of changing the circumstances of coitus.  It is not a lie for an animal.  Coitus was made that way by Nature for animals because animals cannot think well enough to contend with the mechanics of making love.  Nature also provided for so much more than an animal can experience.  Nature provided everything necessary for a sentient race to make it a loving event.  We have just not gotten out of our own way.

In the case of a sentient race, rutting coitus becomes the lie.  Rutting coitus is the situation in which a sentient race emerges.  It is not acceptable for a sentient race that knows better.  We know better.

Rutting coitus was so ingrained, through millions of years of the witless animal's existence, before we ever existed, that we couldn't initially conceive of how to make it an act of love.  We did conceive of what it would mean to make it an act of love, though.  The conundrum regarding the two disparate notions led us to look for explanations.  

Crossing the threshold from the rutting coitus of the animal to the realization of Loving Coitus is the defining moment of sentience.

It has dogged our steps for at least three millennia.  Rutting coitus makes sense - for an animal.  Loving Coitus is the only way coitus makes coherent sense to a sentient race.

Rutting coitus is an act that haunts our sentience.  It is a lie to believe that it is acceptable for a sentient race.  We purge our sentience by believing rutting coitus is acceptable to a self-aware race.

Early prehumanity could conceive of an act of coitus that suited a sentient race, a loving act in which the ecstasy was shared by both, but could not conceive of how to do it.  They opted to avoid the the question altogether.  In the West, because it had been blatantly exposed by Sappho, if no one else, the idea had to be squelched.  The East, for whatever reason, was able to adopt Saving Face rather than ever confront the issue. (I still wonder if the East would have ever been able to confront the situation with such an approach; it really squelched all consideration thoroughly)

It is that squelching in all cultures that led to all of the trouble.  We knew what should be but could not face it at all.  So, it was rendered into a lie, enforced by the mantra "Don't even think about it.  It will drive you mad."  "It is madness to make coitus something pleasurable for a sentient race."

In order to make that happen, subtle nuances, insidious implications, were applied to make sure the young never got it into their heads to ever think about it.

I've already talked at length about how youth still rebels in the absence of anything substantial to rebel against.  The biggest idea that ever enters their heads is that something is not right.  They still rebel, even in the depths of their blindness.  It is our sentience rebelling against the forced forced blindness.  For the Flower Power Generation, it was finally voiced as "Free Love".  All the got was free sex.

At best, somewhere deep in the subconscious of a young man the following may rattle around "Coitus should be different, but my elders (that I'm taught to respect and obey (for no good reason)) weren't able to change anything, so who am I to think any different?"  It is the defeat of a sentient being.

"It's been this way forever, so who am I to think differently?"

That which rubs everyone raw over a lifetime is our sentient awareness.  It knows what should be.  Humanity is not built to accept the failure.

With the acceptance of the failure to fulfill the act of love in the most natural manner possible, we fail as a race to become sentient.

I've been thinking about the lie that started it all in conjunction with a few of the lesser lies and begin to gain a little more clarity.

TLTSIA, that sex can be no more than what it is, that the woman must service the man's ecstasy with nothing in return.  The lie is only a lie for Humans.  As long as it persists, it forces the prehuman into a state exactly the same as an animal.  It is an the utter truth for the animal.  It is a lie, due to three millennia of delusions and animal-like perception of a sentient existence for a race continuing to desperately avoid its sentient clarity.

After rewriting The Grand Narrative, I began thinking about TLTSIA and realized there is even more to say.

I was thinking about the mindset that develops in the man as the years go by.  It starts with absolute shock that the most essential expression of love is no more than a tawdry affair.  Then, it moves on to a struggle with how to contend with the awkward situation without the slightest ability to accept the situation.  That is the point that them man goes haywire.  

The concept that there is something wrong with one's own enactment of loving expression is nigh on impossible to accept.  It twists and twists - both genders.  

I can still think of my own attempts to grapple with the situation.  I could not accept that there was something wrong with me, so my thinking toyed with the idea that there must be something wrong with the woman.  That screwy thought was buried deeply, like the rest of the conundrum of coitus. 

Of course, in my unusual case, I just did my best to avoid the situation in the strangest way imaginable without ever looking for an alternative.  Funny thing is that I was helped along the way by women.  Let me tell you, that is a huge admission on my part that took me on the order of half a century to accept.

Every man struggles with the same impossible realization, that they are not succeeding at the most loving act of existence, unless by some extraordinary circumstances, he learns to succeed wholly.  That is rare to the point of a fraction of a percent.  

If they are not succeeding completely, then they have to find some other way to settle the score.  

Some pursue wealth or fame or power to attract women and cast them aside at the slightest hint that they are catching on, becoming bored, or finding another way to contend with the lack of their own ecstasy.  Some find alternative ways to fulfill the woman's ecstasy, finally accepting that there is nothing to be done.  Deep in the subconscious, I suspect that they sense what they are never willing to admit.  This makes them less than Human.  Some (most?) choose finding a woman that accepts the